I died of death
And never knew it,
And grew to be young
And died of it,
And grew to be wise
And died,
A bit,
Of that too.
But I shall not be old
Nor ever die of it.
Today
When you took my hand
In winter
To tell me –
Through pore and vein,
Not words –
That summer exists always,
I felt under my shirt
For my heart
And damp clod clung to my fingers;
I was sad
And I was alive.
For once
I was certain
That I would not die of life.
Perhaps the full winter of death
Has come
With that secret saboteur summer,
That is ever in hiding
And never goes away.
I can die of summer.
But, this was supposed to be a poem of love,
That most secret cause of death.